Yes, it's very early on Wednesday. Woke at five and couldn't go back to sleep.
I've been trying to meditate, but I can only get about 5 breaths in before I lose it.
Mom comes today and the house has not been cleaned. There is clutter, dust, and kitten detritis.
There's a kitten at the door howling right now. I've trained them that breakfast is served once I'm up. This particular kitten is hearing my typing as I sit in the dark.
Today is the preop. It feels like today is the first step down a long and painful road. I hope that's not true, but I think it is.
I suspect the next few months will be fillled with discomfort and the loss of ability to do things. I don't know what all those things are yet, but I grieve for having lost them.
The writing helps.
I am so very thankful for the many friends I have who offer their time and support and love. Thank you. I can't say it enough.
Ok, need to get the day started, lab tests start early today.
Wow, so sorry to hear this and I can totally relate about how your told. Mine was completely unexpected as well but when the found the tumor they did a biopsy on the spot. But fortunately for me and I hope the same for you it is caught early enough. I do like the idea of blogging just so you can talk and express whats going on even if no one reads it I think its a really good mental thing to do. It never occured or was suggested to me when I was going through mine.
ReplyDeleteKeep us posted, Ron J