Good Morning!
I want to apologize to all of you for dropping such unexpected news.
I also want to aapologize cuz from the response, I think I was pretty pessimistic in my writing. I'm really not totally desolate, just kinda scared at times. Than kfully, the fear comes and goes. I try very hard to stay in the now, not always easy.
And my house is NOT that dirty.
Mom got here yesterday and didn't pass out from being distraught at the state of the house. She easily overlooked the detritis around her, i did a bit of dusting and wiping down the counters. Then we got out the kittens and played.
It's very nice having her here. She made a nice dinner for us last night (it was a snacky dinner, yum!) and insisted I try her scotch. I only had one. Thought it would be bad form to show up for surgery today hungover.
Today I will be irritable. No food or drink since midnight. And surgery isn't until 1130 IF they stay on schedule. So by then I am sure I will have a raging headache. Maybe I'll start the pain thing "On a scale of 1 to 10, 10 being worse, my pain is a _____."
I am surprised that I have shared this info so widely. That's not like me. But there's a part of me that wants folks to know so they can help their loved ones through this. And I want to make sure people know that mammograms are important. I knew I would never get breast cancer, didn't realize I was in a high risk group. And I thought I was well informed.
Ok, back to me (yes, it's all about me for the next week or so). Surgery at 1130, then an hour in recovery and then I'll come home. Since there's no cutting on muscle, recovery should be pretty quick.
I feel calm. Think I'll keep calm and carry on.
Love to you.
Today will be long an
You are loved, and have a great prayer covering going for you.
ReplyDeleteDear Leslie, I'm asking Archangels Raphael and Gabriel (helper to writers!) to watch over you and help you heal quickly. I'm also praying to Quan Yin and Mary (my patron saint), to keep your yin and yang in balance! I think you are very brave to share your experience, and the extra prayers will help in your recovery! I've become a strong believer in the power of prayer because I've seen it in action.
ReplyDeleteBlessings, Mary B
Did the doc get a pic...can't wait to see the bastard! Anyone who wasn't part of that conversation will think I'm completely insensitive and morbid...oh well, I know your smiling and that's all that counts.
ReplyDeleteHere's to hoping that each day gets better. Thoughts and prayers are with you. I like that "Keep calm and carrying on." Hope you have more calm days. ;o)
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